I am a long time seeker of all things spiritual. Not being particularly religious people, my parents offered me a lukewarm introduction to organized religion. And after being asked not to return to Sunday school at the tender age of 5, I realized early on that many of my questions were not going to be answered by any religious dogma or clergy. I was clearly on my own. So with fits and starts the spiritual journey commenced and I now find myself on a path that my soul has been patiently waiting for me to fully embrace.
I have read dozens of books on a myriad of spiritual and mystical topics. I have studied most of the major world religions and participated in religious ceremonies of all sorts. But with each experience I kept arriving at an empty place. With the exception of the Sacrament of the Holy Eucharist, something was always missing. There was a palpable disconnect, a huge missing link. Then about ten years ago the veil started to lift. I remember the priest who gave the homily; I remember the topic…the humanity and divinity of the Virgin Mary. Of course this information had been presented to me before, but there was something in his sermon that resonated with my soul. It was the Divine Feminine, the female aspect of God. Despite the fact that college studies had taught me that many world religions revere a feminine aspect of God, it never really connected with me.
Although my intention is not to offend anyone or discount anyone’s belief system, I believe that organized Christianity has surgically and intentionally removed the Divine Feminine from it’s rightful place in the Holy Trinity and in doing so, it has ripped us out of the arms of our Mother. We are like infants looking for a mother’s breast to nourish and comfort us, and all we get is an empty bottle filled with some man-made substitute. And if we are compelled to explore the Old Testament, we are left with an authoritarian Father God who is always telling us what we are doing wrong and dishing out punishments gaining obedience out of fear and not love. We are all motherless orphans.
I believe if we are created in His image and I am a woman, logic dictates that God is also female or has a feminine aspect. Or better yet, let’s explore Mother/Father God; God the Father, Holy Spirit the Mother, Jesus the Son. It is in Genesis 1: 2-4 that we first see the Holy Spirit as the creative force of God. What could possibly be more creative than birthing the cosmos into being? Yes, I chose the word birth to illustrate the feminine aspect. God the Father, Holy Spirit the Mother, co-creators of all. Until we find balance between the masculine and feminine aspects in humanity, we will continue to be hungry infants. We can no longer keep consuming the pablum of organized Christianity that choses to ignore the Divine Feminine. Our spiritual evolution is dependent on it.
Every midwife knows
that not until a mother’s womb
softens from the pain of labour
will a way unfold
and the infant find that opening to be born.
There is treasure in your heart, it is heavy with child.
All the awakened ones, like trusted midwives are saying,
welcome this pain.
It opens the dark passage of Grace.